Five Minute Fridays: In Between

I am late writing for Friday's prompt since we were out of town, unplugged, enjoying a wonderful weekend of camping (pictures in a post soon).  I couldn't let this prompt pass me by though as it resonated with me.

Five Minute Fridays is hosted by Lisa-Jo Baker, encouraging bloggers to write on a prompt unedited for five minutes.  This weeks prompt is In Between.

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Sometimes I get stuck in the mud of in-between.  Thinking more of yesterday or tomorrow, almost missing today.

I daydream of holding the baby we are praying to adopt someday.  I remember the days when my son was a newborn as I sort through a box of baby clothes I'm putting into the nursery.  My little boy comes in wanting to know if we can read the next chapter (or two) from his favorite series.  I stop and read with my 4 year old, enjoying him snuggled up next to me.

I compose messages in my head to our unborn baby of the future, hoping to record this time of waiting.  I compose messages in my head (and sometimes my blog) to my son, hoping to record the wonderfulness of who he is now, his amazing imagination, the silly things he's said.  Yet more often I need to stop recording and go play in the fort, build with his legos, have the water fight and go out for ice cream.

Sometimes I hesitate making plans too far in the future because of the "what if" of a prayed for adoption placement.  Recently I wondered if I would regret signing up for a convention, paying in advance, if I'm not sure what October will look like?  My heart tells me to go.  So does my husband.  I click the submit button, praying. 

In our waiting, we can't stop living.  In this in-between, we still celebrate today. 

I don't know what tomorrow holds.  I can't change my yesterdays.  All I'm given is today, but if I'm not careful it can just slip through my fingers.

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